urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in Paul Paul 2009-11-07T05:01:49Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:392637 2009-11-07T05:01:49Z 2009-11-07T05:01:49Z <lj-embed id="69" /><br /><br />ROFL urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:392037 2009-10-05T20:16:51Z 2009-10-05T20:16:51Z 3 boys sitting at the picnic table next door drinking their Kool-Aid and eating a cookie.<br /><br /><br />Toddler #1: Paul!<br />Me: Yeah?<br />Toddler #1: I got (2 minutes of rambling) and I got him.<br />Me: You did?<br />Toddler #1: Yeah.<br />Me: Way to go buddy!<br /><br />Toddler #2: Paul!<br />Me: Yeah?<br />Toddler #2: I had (muttering), but now all I got is 2 green ones.<br />Me: Just three green ones?<br />Toddler #2: Yeah.<br />Me: Cool.<br /><br />Toddler #3: Paul!<br />Me: *rolling eyes* Yeah?<br />Toddler #3: .... I love you!<br />Me: *snicker* Well I love you too.<br /><br />I guess he didn't have any news and was feeling left out. ha ha. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:391610 2009-09-25T16:41:18Z 2009-09-25T16:41:18Z <lj-embed id="68" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:389994 2009-08-01T05:06:29Z 2009-08-01T05:06:29Z Uhmm. Just lost it while this song was on. Not particularly religious any more, but still believe in God and all that good stuff, doing unto others as you'd have done unto you etc. Felt good to let go of some things.<br /><br /><center><br /><lj-embed id="67" /></center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:389655 2009-07-29T13:35:04Z 2009-07-29T13:35:04Z But me likey....NSFW for some, minor language and content.<br /><center><br /><lj-embed id="66" /></center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:388163 2009-07-01T15:13:50Z 2009-07-01T15:14:25Z <img src="http://icanhascheezburger.files.wordpress.com/2009/06/funny-pictures-cat-sees-inside-of-toilet.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:387188 2009-05-11T14:59:56Z 2009-05-11T14:59:56Z <center><br /><lj-embed id="65" /></center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:386818 2009-05-06T17:52:05Z 2009-05-06T17:52:05Z Go Maine! It's your birthday. We gonna party like it's ya birthday. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:386398 2009-04-30T13:03:32Z 2009-04-30T13:03:32Z Great....why is it that all the kids at work are coughing up their lungs now? *looks to see if they are sprouting curly tails*<br /><br />Yay...no swine flu yet. First cows, then birds, now pigs...what's next? :D urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:383845 2009-04-13T17:28:56Z 2009-04-13T17:28:56Z <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XyuYiOrJiLU" target="_blank">Clicky Thing</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:383743 2009-04-03T17:29:32Z 2009-04-03T17:29:32Z Iowa? Seriously? SERIOUSLY? IOWA?<br /><br />*blinks* urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:383428 2009-04-02T14:30:23Z 2009-04-02T14:30:23Z <a href="http://icanhascheezburger.com/2009/03/31/funny-pictures-butt-in-ur-noms/"><img class="mine_3630688" title="funny-pictures-cat-warms-his-butt-in-your-dinner" src="http://icanhascheezburger.wordpress.com/files/2009/03/funny-pictures-cat-warms-his-butt-in-your-dinner.jpg" alt="funny pictures of cats with captions" /></a><br />see more <a href="http://icanhascheezburger.com">Lolcats and funny pictures</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:378909 2009-02-03T15:36:09Z 2009-02-03T15:36:09Z Someone asked me the other day how things were going and my unenthusiastic response was "Well the world is still spinning, so that's a good thing."<br /><br />I think that pretty much sums up my mood. Life is still getting back to normal. The normal single routine of get up in the morning, go to work, come home have dinner, go to the second job, come home go to bed. Lather, rinse, repeat. Do the laundry when it needs done, do the dishes when they need done and that's pretty much my life.<br /><br />I won't lie though, it's been nice getting back to vanilla. I feel much more relaxed and much more in control. Am I in a deep, deep hole? Oh yeah...but at least I know where I'm at and I know how to get out of it. I'm not sweating that part.<br /><br />Am I pissed off about being taken advantage of? Oddly no. I don't like being in a hole, but I'm not really mad at anyone or anything. Perhaps I'm still in shock or perhaps I'm just so relieved to be back on familiar ground that I don't really care where I'm at so long as I know what to do while I'm there.<br /><br />Do I plan on cutting Bryson off? Not entirely, at least not immediately. I have no intentions of paying big bills for him. I'm under no delusion that he'll be getting out any time soon, and I kinda like that idea. I fully understand that he'll be going away for a number of years at a minimum. I'm also under no delusion that he's going to do anything to turn his life around, but just to be sure I'm going to wait by the side lines for a few minutes to make sure.<br /><br />Am I putting my life on hold for him? No, not at all. I'm in no shape to try and date someone at the moment. The only visitations I do work around my work schedule and last 10 minutes. It doesn't take me long to hammer out a letter on my lunch break and toss it in the mailbox once a week. In all honesty that's all I plan on doing for him. If he asks me to come to his court date I might take the day off and go, but I doubt that he'll want me there when the time comes.<br /><br />In all honesty I'll probably "fade away" like he says everyone else does.<br /><br />As for me...I plan on buckling down. 2009 wasn't intended to be a year of recovery, but it's certainly looking like it's going to work out that way. Come on Spring let's have some sunshine. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:378857 2009-02-03T03:00:54Z 2009-02-03T03:00:54Z Someone just did their taxes. Why does this always bring me joy? *ponders* Oh yes, one year I had to pay so now I have extra taken out of my paycheck just to be safe. That spells a nice refund each year. :)<br /><br />*does a happy dance* urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:378555 2009-02-01T18:16:15Z 2009-02-01T18:16:15Z 1. Where is your cell phone? Charging<br />2. Your significant other? Questionable<br />3. Your hair? Frizzy<br />4. Your mother? Sweet<br />5. Your father? Strong<br />6. Your favorite thing? Love<br />7. Your dream last night? non-existant<br />8. Your favorite drink? Soda<br />9. Your dream/goal? Lost<br />10. What room you are in? Living<br />11. Your hobby? Work<br />12. Your fear? Solitude<br />13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Happy<br />14. Where were you last night? Work<br />16. Muffins? Please<br />17. Wish list item? *sigh*<br />18. Where you grew up? BFE<br />19. Last thing you did? Type<br />20. What are you wearing? cloths<br />21. Your TV? On<br />22. Your pets? Crazy<br />23. Friends? True<br />24. Your life? Empty<br />25. Your mood? Blah<br />26. Missing some one? Unfortunately<br />27. Car? Buick<br />28. Something you're not wearing? Watch<br />29. Your favorite store? Aldi's<br />30. Your favorite color? Rainbow<br />33. When is the last time you laughed? Days<br />34. Last time you cried? Hours<br />35. Who will resend this? Dunno<br />36. One place that I go to over and over? Work!<br />37. One person who emails me regularly? Mich<br />38. My favorite place to eat? Buffet<br />39. Why you participated in this survey? Time<br />40. What are you doing tonight? Dunno urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:376427 2009-01-23T19:20:15Z 2009-01-23T19:20:15Z WHAT THE F*CK? SOMEONE BONDED HIM OUT!?!?!?!?!?!<br /><br />Someone at least has his phone. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:375555 2009-01-23T07:44:22Z 2009-01-23T07:44:22Z Ding dong the witch is dead, which old witch, the witch old witch. Ding dong the motherf*ckin' witch is dead!<br /><br />Ok...not dead, that'd be mean to be so happy over someone dying. But suffice to say he'll be leaving the state prison in a pine box. And I had nothing to do with it. :)<br /><br />More details to come, comment if you want to see them otherwise I won't bore you with the details. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:374820 2009-01-15T14:57:39Z 2009-01-15T14:57:39Z <div class='appwidget appwidget-qotd' id='LJWidget_12'> <table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0"><tr><td><div style='border: 1px solid #000; padding: 6px;'><p>What fictional high school—from tv, film, or a book—would you most like to attend? Or would you rather never go near high school again, fictional or otherwise?</p><p style='font-size: 0.8em;'></p><br /><p><input type="button" value="Answer" onclick="document.location.href='http://www.livejournal.com/update.bml?qotd=745'" /> <a target="_blank" href="http://www.livejournal.com/misc/latestqotd.bml?qid=745">View 502 Answers</a></p></div></td></tr></table></div><!-- end .appwidget-qotd --> I'd really rather never attend again. Or if I did it'd be a school big enough that I could be out and it not be a big deal. Haha. Yay for group showers in PE. ;) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:374744 2009-01-13T01:17:59Z 2009-01-13T01:18:33Z <a href="http://www.jesusdressup.com/" target="_blank">Clicky Thing</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:373294 2008-12-29T01:39:14Z 2008-12-29T01:39:14Z 1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?<br />Had my longest relationship. Visited a jail. Bonded someone out of jail. Found out my parents are now ok with me being gay.<br /><br />2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?<br />I can't remember what my resolutions were. I normally make the new year my excuse for cleaning up my life so I'm sure that 2009 will not be all that different.<br /><br />3. Did anyone close to you give birth?<br />Yes. My neice. I'll even say Bryson though he didn't "give birth", but he has a baby now.<br /><br />4. Did anyone close to you die?<br />No.<br /><br />5. What countries did you visit?<br />The good ole U-S and A<br /><br />6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?<br />A husband worth all the effort I've been putting into Bryson.<br /><br />7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?<br />Oct 10th. The day Bryson became a daddy. (Why do I know this and he doesn't?) ha!<br /><br />8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?<br />Not it's brag worthy, but I'll say having my longest relationship and running up $70,000 in credit card debt.<br /><br />9. What was your biggest failure?<br />Ooooh. See number 8. 4 real, 4 real.<br /><br />10. Did you suffer illness or injury?<br />Nothing out of the ordinary.<br /><br />11. What was the best thing you bought?<br />ADT system. lol.<br /><br />12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?<br />Haven't a clue.<br /><br />13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?<br />Bryson's, my own.<br /><br />14. Where did most of your money go?<br />*ahem* Bryson.<br /><br />15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?<br />I'm still not a very excitable person. I got shocked more this year than anything else. Not sure that's the same thing though.<br /><br />16. What song will always remind you of 2008?<br />Good Nigga - Gorilla Zoe<br /><br />17. Compared to this time last year, are you:<br />I. Happier or sadder? Uhmm. About the same.<br />II. Thinner or fatter? Thinner, gotta love being so stressed that you forget to eat.<br />III. Richer or poorer? Poorer!<br /><br />18. What do you wish you'd done more of?<br />Going to the gym, getting out, spending time with friends.<br /><br />19. What do you wish you'd done less of?<br />Stressing over people who don't care about me.<br /><br />20. How will you be spending Christmas?<br />Spent it with my parents.<br /><br />21. Did you fall in love in 2008?<br />Yeah...dammit.<br /><br />22. How many one-night stands?<br />I tried, but failed miserably.<br /><br />23. What was your favorite TV program?<br />Hardball?<br /><br />24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?<br />Hate is such a strong word. No, I don't hate anyone. <br /><br />25. What was the best book you read?<br />Book?<br /><br />26. What was your greatest musical discovery?<br />Sugarland<br /><br />27. What did you want and get?<br />Love...Bryson. :-\<br /><br />28. What did you want and not get?<br />Same as above. lol.<br /><br />29. What was your favourite film of this year?<br />Shelter<br /><br />20. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?<br />Eat New Years left overs. I was 28. Soon to be 29.<br /><br />31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?<br />Jesus how many questions can I work my relationship problems into? Freakin' 7 months.<br /><br />32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?<br />TJ Maxx.<br /><br />33. What kept you sane?<br />Driving, family, lately I'd say my sanity is seriously in question.<br /><br />34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?<br />Joel McHale is oddly attractive to me lately.<br /><br />35. What political issue stirred you the most?<br />Getting youth involved.<br /><br />36. Who did you miss?<br />The old me.<br /><br />37. Who was the best new person you met?<br />Haven't met anyone new that I can say is still around so...<br /><br />38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.<br />Always look out for #1, no one else will. <br /><br />39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.<br />"You know nothing comes easy, you gotta try real, real hard. I tried hard. But I guess I gotta try harder." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:373103 2008-12-28T05:26:15Z 2008-12-28T05:26:56Z Ok...took me a minute. So...this is where I am. Doesn't mean that it has to be where I end up.<br /><br />And yes...it took a song to kick me in the ass. Oh well...*jams out with his clam out*<br /><br /><center><br /><lj-embed id="63" /></center><br /><br />Bring on the New Year! It's gonna hurt, but I've got to start moving forward. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:369992 2008-11-27T14:16:49Z 2008-11-27T14:16:49Z <div style="width:300px; background:black; color:#AAAAAA; padding: 10px;text-align:center; border: 1px solid #333333;">Your rainbow is strongly shaded<b> red and blue.</b><br><br><div style="background: #b32e4d">&nbsp;</div><div style="background: #b3724d">&nbsp;</div><div style="background: #b3944d">&nbsp;</div><div style="background: #4d864d">&nbsp;</div><div style="background: #4d6bb3">&nbsp;</div><div style="background: #4d2eb3">&nbsp;</div><div style="background: #912eb3">&nbsp;</div><br>What is says about you: You are a passionate person. You appreciate friends who get along with one another. You get bored easily and want friends who will keep up with you. You share hobbies with friends and like trying to fit into their routines.<br><br><a href="http://spacefem.com/quizzes/rainbow">Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.</a></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:367556 2008-11-19T18:19:49Z 2008-11-19T18:22:00Z <a href="http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/22425001/vp/27792173#27792173" target="_blank">Clicky Thing</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:366227 2008-11-14T13:20:38Z 2008-11-14T13:20:38Z <table style="width: 320px; border: 1px solid gray; font: normal 12px arial, verdana, sans-serif; background-color: white;"><tr><td colspan="2" style="background: white; color: black; padding: 5px;"><b style="font: bold 20px &#39;Times New Roman&#39;, serif; display: block; margin-bottom: 8px;">What American accent do you have?</b> <div style="font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 4px;">Your Result: <b>North Central</b></div><div style="width: 200px; background: white; border: 1px solid black;"><div style="width: 88%; background: red; font-size: 8px; line-height: 8px;">&nbsp;</div></div><p style="margin: 10px; border: none; background: white; color: black;">"North Central" is what professional linguists call the Minnesota accent. If you saw "Fargo" you probably didn't think the characters sounded very out of the ordinary. Outsiders probably mistake you for a Canadian a lot.</p></td></tr><tr><td style="color: black; background: white; padding: 3px;">The West</td><td style="background: white; padding: 3px;"><div style="width: 100px; background: white; border: 1px solid black; margin-top: 4px;"><div style="width: 84%; background: red; font-size: 8px; line-height: 8px;">&nbsp;</div></div></td></tr><tr><td style="color: black; background: white; padding: 3px;">The Midland</td><td style="background: white; padding: 3px;"><div style="width: 100px; background: white; border: 1px solid black; margin-top: 4px;"><div style="width: 83%; background: red; font-size: 8px; line-height: 8px;">&nbsp;</div></div></td></tr><tr><td style="color: black; background: white; padding: 3px;">Boston</td><td style="background: white; padding: 3px;"><div style="width: 100px; background: white; border: 1px solid black; margin-top: 4px;"><div style="width: 62%; background: red; font-size: 8px; line-height: 8px;">&nbsp;</div></div></td></tr><tr><td style="color: black; background: white; padding: 3px;">The Inland North</td><td style="background: white; padding: 3px;"><div style="width: 100px; background: white; border: 1px solid black; margin-top: 4px;"><div style="width: 41%; background: red; font-size: 8px; line-height: 8px;">&nbsp;</div></div></td></tr><tr><td style="color: black; background: white; padding: 3px;">The South</td><td style="background: white; padding: 3px;"><div style="width: 100px; background: white; border: 1px solid black; margin-top: 4px;"><div style="width: 34%; background: red; font-size: 8px; line-height: 8px;">&nbsp;</div></div></td></tr><tr><td style="color: black; background: white; padding: 3px;">Philadelphia</td><td style="background: white; padding: 3px;"><div style="width: 100px; background: white; border: 1px solid black; margin-top: 4px;"><div style="width: 22%; background: red; font-size: 8px; line-height: 8px;">&nbsp;</div></div></td></tr><tr><td style="color: black; background: white; padding: 3px;">The Northeast</td><td style="background: white; padding: 3px;"><div style="width: 100px; background: white; border: 1px solid black; margin-top: 4px;"><div style="width: 17%; background: red; font-size: 8px; line-height: 8px;">&nbsp;</div></div></td></tr><tr><td colspan="2" style="text-align: center; padding: 8px;"><a href="http://www.gotoquiz.com/what_american_accent_do_you_have"><b>What American accent do you have?</b></a><br><a href="http://www.gotoquiz.com/">Quiz Created on GoToQuiz</a></td></tr></table><br /><br />I don't think this test is very accurate. I have a southern accent if anything. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:luckyme_in:365008 2008-11-07T14:19:13Z 2008-11-07T14:19:13Z Got my head shrunk again last night. Most of the session we spent putting together a new plan because honestly we haven't been getting much since I've been back. Be it the meds or us not doing what we're supposed to do for some unknown reason. At any rate we made a plan last night and we'll see if I start making some progress.<br /><br />One thing that we did manage to talk about last night was my attitude or outlook on life that I should "just deal with it". It's the good old, pull yourself up by your boot straps, count on no one but yourself type of thing. No matter what life throws your way if you get knocked down, well "just deal with it" and get back up and get moving.<br /><br />It's something that my parents helped drill into me and it's one of my core values. Give me any crisis and I'll be fine...after the crisis is over I'll fall to pieces, but during the crisis I'm cool as a cucumber. (Note I'm not blaming my parents...I'm just stating where it comes from.)<br /><br />So, on one hand if I'm given a lousy situation and I "just deal with it" I think of that as a badge of honor of sorts and certainly a sign of strength. In certain situations just dealing with something is handy. Say the death of a loved one or being in a car accident.<br /><br />On the other hand there have been times in life when I've been wronged. Rather than stand up for myself or seek retribution I "just deal with it" which normally involves me just accepting whatever happened and moving on. Say the time I got knifed at school and kept my mouth shut and went on my way. Or the time I got assaulted and didn't call the cops. In cases like that I just "took it" and went on my way.<br /><br />I know being strong in a situation is a good thing, but there is such a thing as too much of a good thing. I also know that not standing up for yourself is very bad.<br /><br />Where do you fall in certain situations? How much is healthy to "just deal with" and where is the line that you personally would seek retribution for being wronged?